I am not a psychologist. I am not a therapist nor a counselor. I am not a professional of any sort. I am just like you. I am an average person who struggles with anxiety. Who also happens struggle with depression… thanks to anxiety.
I’ve suffered from severe anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I became suicidal at the age of 12. It wasn’t a matter of if but when. I spent a majority of my life in isolation. Avoiding the world. There was a point for about 5-6 years aside from school I was not seen out in public, no movies, no malls, no restaurants, nowhere. Even school became too much to handle, leading me to finish online my senior year.
Anxiety and depression consumed my life. As far as I was concerned I didn’t even “have a life”. Often times my friends (surprised I had friends? Me too.. I owe that all to one who went out of his way for me). Well, they would try to take me out in public but I would usually end up waiting in their cars. I can’t even tell you how many friends cars I’ve thrown up on or in. I was known for throwing up a lot. Going through anxiety and panic attacks felt like torture. I hated the feeling so much. It was always back to isolation after a few attempts at pursuing life.
After sitting at rock bottom for about a year after graduation, I decided to change my life. With the help of my lovely wife. One of the few people I remained in contact with at that time. With her help, I was able to escape my past. Defy what I thought was my destined future. I was able to be a part of life. Create life and actually live life for the first time. I struggled for another 6 years before reaching my goal of becoming the “real me”. I still don’t think I’m 100% there yet…but I’m pretty close.
In recent years I decided to change my outlook on anxiety, to accept anxiety for what it is. By learning to love and embrace anxiety. Stop fighting and be one with my anxious mind, body, and soul. This approach has saved my life and I will forever share these methods. I am currently in the process of writing a book about this approach as well as one about my struggle with life. I hope the content I share on this blog helps improve and change the lives of others who suffer like I did.
-You are not alone-
– Brandon Meyer –